"I Knew I Could Trust You"

Our friend, Pastor Dave Ness, blessed us with a visit over dinner last week. He then came to our home and sang the song he wrote for our family titled, "I Knew I Could Trust You." While sitting on our couch, he played his guitar and we all cried through the summary of Anna's story placed sweetly to prose and chords. 

His involvement in our lives through this entire journey has been a blessing. He and his wife, Joy, invited us to stay in their home while we waited for Anna to be born. We ended up staying elsewhere, but saw them several times whether over dinner or at their church, or when Pastor Dave would come check on us at the hospital. Always, with prayer and words of encouragement. 

Pastor Dave & Joy know the pain of losing a baby. They lost triplets. And Dave shared that God gave him the last portion of this song just recently, on their 18th birthday. 

I Knew I Could Trust You 

For Anna Joy’s Family 

Dave Ness 

August 23, 2012 

Unexpected miracle, then unexpected trials, 

Advice to just “start over” and avoid most certain pain.

Instead of starting over, you decided just to love her; 

Instead of giving up, you gave our Anna Joy a name. 

And you asked for prayer 

And the game was on. 

I knew I could trust you. 

I knew I could trust you. 

Faith in me runs deep with you; you knew that I could do it... 

I don’t do odds, just miracles; precisely what you need! 

No matter what the outcome, you knew I’d help you through it, 

Your call for prayer went worldwide and sent thousands to their knees 

For an unborn child 

they’ve never seen. 

I knew I could trust you. 

I knew I could trust you. 

The only chance this baby has takes everything you’ve got, 

And even then the odds are ten percent; 

She doesn’t need one miracle, but several in a row— 

The world is watching carefully 

To see where your prayers go.... 

Your faith has been rewarded! Your little girl is born. 

She’s beautiful! She made it through the night. 

A week has passed; you stare into amazing little eyes 

So this is what your answered prayer looks like! 

The only chance this baby has takes everything you’ve got 

And even now the odds are ten percent; 

She doesn’t need one miracle, but several in a row— 

The world is watching carefully 

To see where your prayers go.... 

Silent teardrops falling on a perfect little face, 

Anointing fading hope from aching eyes. 

The miracles have run out and it’s time to say goodbye; 

A million faith-filled prayers have now become a million "why’s"?

Will you love a baby you will only hold for minutes? 

In only precious hours will she know a lifetime’s love? 

Will you carry hope for her when there’s no more hope in it, 

Then sing her to the angels up above? 

I knew I could trust you. 

I knew I could trust you. 

Will you keep your faith in me when dreams are crushed and shattered, 

When there’s no understanding, only pain and pain and pain? 

Will you keep on holding on to faith and one another?.... 

I knew I could trust you. 

I knew I could trust you. 

“Why, God, why?” (I get that a lot) 

But you’re in the world which now is caught 

Between the perfect worlds that I have made: 

The Garden, where there was no pain, 

And heaven, where my Son will reign; 

You’re still in the world that’s drowning in its sin. 

So take my hand; I’ll lead you through, 

When you can’t walk, I’ll carry you 

Until the day when you’re with her again. 

I know you feel you’ve loved and lost, 

You took the risk and now the cost... 

The sword in your soul, 

The grief you bear, 

You wonder if I even care, 

And if I do, Then, why? 

Then, why? Then, why? 

It takes faith to believe that I can do it; 

It takes more faith to trust me when I don’t. 

Your faith will be rewarded, child, and so will all the others, 

Who kept that faith and keep their joy in hope.

Someday when you’re here with me 

And pain’s a forgotten memory, 

You’ll understand the things you can’t know now– 

Like how it is a God who cares 

Could leave His children standing there 

With empty arms, and not be weak or cruel. 

The answers will come in heaven; 

Healing will come in time; 

But the peace I give is for you, right now. 

Receive it, and know you are mine. 

The answers will come in heaven; 

Wounds become scars, in time 

But the comfort I give is for you, right now. 

Receive it, and know you are mine. 

I want you to know how this story ends. 

I want you to know how this all turns out: 

There’s a place beside my throne– 

You call it “heaven;” I call it “home”– 

When all your earthly chores are done, 

You’ll join me here, to stay. 

And, waiting here, 

Is your child of prayer. 

She’ll launch herself into your arms and never let you go! 

Your road of grief will end at last in joy around my throne, 

You’ll hold your precious Anna Joy forever and a day! 

Meanwhile, 

In the tunnel of grief... 

I’m here. 

I’m right here. 

And I love you. 

I’m proud of you. 

I’m holding you... both. 

And I’ll never let go. 

Never let go, 

I’ll never let go. 

One more thing I want you to know, 

Even though it may not seem it’s true: 

When you’re able again, 

You can trust me, too. 

I knew I could trust you; 

You can trust me, too.